好恐怖

我觉得我已经慢慢变回以前的ruru 了..
我自己都不知道为什么
越来越少lansok人家了..
holy n pei wen 她们玩时，我也插不进了..
整个人也越来越静了..
我好害怕。。
真的好害怕。。
无形中的恐惧填满了我的脑袋和心
别人已经几乎看不见我了
我已经可以被无视了
真的真的真的好害怕
我的心好空虚.....

Congratulations

Congratulations mum~!
she gets RM2450, jackpot..
first prize ler..
she bought with her sisters..
total is 4 persons..
so they divided the money into 4..
1M ler..
>.<..
they happy dao.. = =..
anyway, congratulations ^^

Australia Hot dog

SEE~SEE~SEE~!!!!
foreign country's hot dog size so big..
malaysia d ler..
small dao = =
really very big ar~
1 hot dog enough for you to eat whole meal..
no wonder australian so fat..
my mum said..
they dun have 身材..all fat fat d..
but that thing very big..
get wad i meant? xD
then i learnt wad teacher said and i told her..
酱就可以衬托出你不肥了咯..
xD
their junkfood also big big pack d..
cheap cheap d..
(but change to RM..quite expensive d )
everything in large size.. >.<

Failure

>.<
i admit..
my social skills is weak..
jus dunno how to improve it..
whenever i wanted to talk to other peoples..
i will shy >.<
holy so geng nie >.<
so many boys find her.. surrounding by boys everytime..
xD
every 10 seconds will got a boy come n find her
proyao~
today is chkl d jogathon..
6km~ jus like form 1 d jogathon..
this time run with holy.. 1 hour to finish it..
not bad ler.. XD
quite enjoy in it..
at least we dun feel too tired when we run >.<
but my darling knees gonna break..
gonna heart attack too..
felt like it is going to explode in any time.. xD
that time i hope i can jus lay on the grass..
so comfortable~~~ =]

Lenglui~

Taylor Swift~ leng lui~
xD
her sound aso nice ler ~ >.<
so pretty~ perfect person~

Mum in Australia, Me in Malaysia

lol.
mum is now in Australia enjoying her trip..
me, staying in home..doing housework
haiz.
since mum went to foreign country, i have to carry up all work in house
T.T
i have to do all housework when i reach home..
feeding pets, cleaning house, washing plates ( my dad cooks ), prepare bro n sis's skul things..
tired nie..
dun even have time to online..
( i noe i m bluffing, caz i still can post this article xD )
going to be a housewife for 1 week.. = =
exhausted..
mama a, faster come back a..
ur darling ruru dying a..

emo

配角还是主角

在日常生活中
我永远都是扮演着配角，不然就是不起眼的临时演员
有时，我会感到开心，
我不喜欢麻烦，这样就可以安安静静的度过时间
有时，我好希望我是主角
配角，真的好无聊
没有人会注意到配角，所有的人都只注意主角
环绕着主角
配角，永远只能在墙的一个小角落哭泣
爱情，友情中，我永远是配角
家里，我也是什么角色。。
我不知道
我要像她一样吗？能与男生一起吵翻天
可是。。我又会觉得男生很麻烦
有时候又觉得男生很好
真的很矛盾nie..
大家都会说，当你自己就好了
对，我的个性就是配角的个性
所以，我可以了解到那种痛苦与寂寞
真的很难受
真的很难受。。我真的受不了
我好多次都想放弃，变回小学时的我，
安安静静的。。就算和别人同班了很多年
他们也不会知道谁是蔡惠如
永远都不会有人看见我
配角，真的很累，很痛苦，很寂寞

Come back ler

so tired..
*actually i came back yesterday*
but i had lots and lots of fun these days..
it's a good camping ^^
taught us a lot of air scouting's basic knowledge
at least i noe wad is an aeroplane xD
在这三天的露营中，
我们是主办学校
所以一切的东西都我们一手包办
每一餐也是我们煮的
我不会煮东西，所以我就负责清洗材料与器具
我最爱洗鸡了～鱼也是～
在洗这些小可爱时，可以触摸到他们嫩滑的皮肤 xD
尤其是鸡～可以摸到它的血管，咽喉，肺部，心脏等等
真的是很好摸哟～xD
我们这组senior scout是负责每一餐的
所以我们是整天呆在厨房 >.<
整身都是油味，鸡味，鱼味..
我们星期二晚上也举办了一场campfire
临时策划的
不过不用紧 ^^
我们的舞蹈也是前一晚才练的
不过有一首歌的舞蹈是营火会开始的前半个小时才练的
厉害ler
我相信你们还不知道我到底是参加了什么camp barh.. >.<
是空中童军的camp.. 马来西亚只有三间学校有空中童军哦
我的小学是第一间，已经有7年历史了（成立空中童军）
接下来是今年才成立空中童军的methodist boys skul n st. john
全马只有我们童军团的女生是空中童军哦
感到自豪下下 xD
我知道我讲得很乱水
pai seh. >.< 没办法，我太兴奋了
急着与你们分享 >.< sry o..

Breaking my record

lol.
i m gonna to break my record..
tomoro i have to go camping ..
for 3 days..
until wed only can online..
so this will be my last post for these days..
3 days cant online..
dunno how to live without it xD
anyway. wish my camp will fun nie.. >.<

yeepee.. oh no..haha..yeeerrrkkk

Start holidays ler >.<
i am gonna to miss my friends like mad..
oh my gosh..
i cant live without you guys >.<
*yeep..although only for 1 week*
naah..
dun wan to stay at home lar..
have to do many housework..
then also will sien dao dunno wad to do except online..
in school days, still can play with friends and listen to teacher talking bla bla bla
haiz..starting to miss you guys ler xD

( i dunno why i put such a weird title = = )

几米

- 向左走向右走 -

几米的书，真的能让人忘掉一切的烦恼
融入他的世界里，分享他的情绪
他的插画，
很特别 ^^
当你翻阅时，会有种味道散发出来
不是嗅觉上的味道，
是心灵上的味道
好特别的味道
当你翻阅时，会有一阵风轻轻吹过
不是现实中的风，
是幻想中的风
好特别的风
他能让你引起共鸣，
你会不知觉的说：“对！就是这种感觉! 我找到了! "
不是吗？ ^^
www.jimmyspa.com

我今天的pm

今天的pm格外不同
富有许多的伤感，失望，对不起及愿意的成分在里面..
我真的想改,我真的不想忽视每个人了..
我今天已经很努力地向每个我看到的，认识的人打招呼
我也想对你说声:" hi~ "..可是好像太迟了..
你已经不看我了，你宁愿望向别人也不愿意望向我..
你宁愿和别人说话也不愿意和我说声hi.
我无话可说，这是我自找的..我愿意接受惩罚
直到你愿意听我向你说声 hi ..
我好没用..

" 这是我的报应..因为我曾经忽视你,所以现在你也这样对我..不会再出现我们以前互相说声 hi 或微笑的情景了，我愿意接受这样的报应 "

Where the sidewalk ends

A book of poems and drawings..
by Shel Silverstein..
nice book ^^ like it very much~ xD
i borrowed this book from the library..
but it is translated into chinese >.<
some of them quite nice and funny~ share with you guys~

自制的小船
这只小船我们亲手打造
千万别对我们说它不好
船头船尾都是那么完美
只是船底我们不小心忘掉。。

早起的鸟
哦，如果你是小鸟，你一定要起早
把那虫虫抓到，好把早饭吃饱
如果你是小鸟，你一定要起早
可如果你是虫虫，最好睡个懒觉

聪明
爸爸给了我一块钱
因为我是他最聪明的儿子
我拿它换了两个两毛五
因为两个总比一个更划算！

我拿着两个两毛五分钱
和鲁鲁做了交换
得到了三个一角硬币，他恐怕还不知道
三个比两个更值钱!

这时走来了瞎子贝坦
因为他什么也看不见
就拿走了三个一角，留给我四个五分钱
四个绝对比三个更赚！

我到种子店找科姆· 海然
来兑换我那些五分钱
他居然给我五个一分，那个蠢货
五个绝对比四个更多！

我回到家给爸爸看
爸爸涨成了大红脸
摇了摇头，闭上了眼睛
他太骄傲了，以至于不能把我称赞！

nice ler~ xD

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haha.really lolz.. sien mar >.<

so tired nie

jus came back from scout..
2 days 1 night..
tired dao..
sry >.< lazy to describe our camping programme..
keep making myself wake up now..
wanted to sleep but cant..
tomoro d test not yet read.. sejarah projek not yet do ..
haiz.. tired a..

Emo

me so emo nie..
dunno why..jus felt like that..
today we celebrated my bro's birthday..
actually is tomoro, but me n him tomoro got camp until monday..
so we celebrated today lor..
happy birthday to him ^^
your are my dearest brother ^^
today quite down mood d..
dunno why..
at home always wear black shirt d..
名副其实的emo..
emo emo emo emo.. me is emo~
xD
actually should say
my mood quite down since last month..
no reason = =
not d happy, always high d ruru ler lor..
now is .. down mood, lazy, emo d ruru ler lor
so lazy to walk around.. so lazy to do everything i shall do
sien = =
want to shout.. want to cry..
want to punch something..
but have to 忍耐..
ruru very good in 忍耐 d.. rite? ^^

i know

i noe.. i noe..
my blog very boring = =
nothing to read..
k?
blog doesnt mean to let other people read gua..
it jus for you to depress yourself..
if write for other people to see..
then no fun ler nie.. >.<
i enjoy this feeling..
so dun try to ask me to write something nice or wad wad..
i hate it..

用那个痛所换来的是最真实的自我

i saw this sentence from a comic..
hard to believe rite.. comic..
parents use to say
" dont read too much ar.. bad for you "
xD but i still read nie..
用那个痛所换来的是最真实的自我
i like this sentence..
it's true..
人不经过痛和疑惑，就无法发现自己真实的性格
每经过一次的痛，就会让你多学一样性格 ^^
从以前到现在，我学会了体贴与自信
谢谢他们..让我成熟一点..
谢谢 ^^

Tired

so tired o..
exam finished ler..
xD can play whole day ler~
this time d result..i think i will fail all barh..
din study well..
especially bm..
so dissapointed..
i can get A d.. careless.
no word.
las two days d exam quite good ..
got confidence xD
no think ler.
now, all i have to do is to..
PLAY~ SCREAM~ JUMP~ SHAKE~ OH YEAH~ AH HA~
lolz. so happy and exciting..
dunno y i m exciting >.<
maybe today was my first time d algebra do so fast bah..
left 20 minutes when i was at my last question xD
so happy~